healthy

Hello. How was your weekend?

Mine was nice overall. Friday I had a tad bit of a breakdown (period+little sleep+immense stress from school, work and volunteering+almost 2 years of a long distance relationship+being sick) Friday night. I've been way too stressed out these past few weeks.

Along with the stress and lack of sleep, my eating and exercise is inconsistent. I promise to eat well, follow through- and then one stress-induced mess-up tears me down. I've been too sick for the past week to exercise more than a slow walk. Even when I am healthy enough to work out, I have NO time! School ends in two weeks- then I plan on working in a bit more time for myself.

I am at 148, the highest in years. Crazy since pre-blog I never staryed from 141-145. Now I miss my starting weight! Only one pair of jeans fits. My shorts are all too tight. I get upset when my fat pants are tight. I need to get myself on track. I need to feel the pain- a bit of resisting temptation here and there. But I am going to refrain from analyzing myself too much until after the next two weeks. My focus right now will be to do my best, get in some exercise and try to sleep more. But I am body-miserable. Sometimes it is more than just weight. I don't feel proud of my body, none of my clothes fit and my belly always hurts from eating too much. As a result, I have been so grumpy and energy-lacking.

One highlight from this weekend was a 25 mile bike ride on Saturday! My friend Becca and I rode for 31/2 hours and sat in Starbucks for 1 hour. We had such a nice time- and a great workout! I have some great sunburn pics coming.. :)

I won't have my camera for a few days. I can't even say how upsetting this is. I keep reaching in my purse for it, but it is not there! I left it at my grandparent's during a family dinner. I take pictures of everything, so this will be tough.

Have a great night :)